Untitled blog about anxiety and realizations.

before i wasn’t really able to pinpoint a logical origin to most of my panic and anxiety moments.

 

but as of late i’ve been more able and willing (sexy) to make a logical assesment of where this anxiety comes from, now obviously sometimes thats not the case and i don’t know where it comes from or what it means.. But sometimes it’s REALLY easy to figure out.. and figure out  where anxiety is coming from (I;E what i’m thinking, what happened that day that could have made me  anxious, i also have an anxiety list for when i’m really wound up and need to write out all my thoughts to figure out where it could be coming from, things people have said that could have made me anxious and of course, not eating enough.. my diet has sucked recently, so that contributes to a lot of it)  Sometimes i am able to just realize I am anxious and try to continue on as if the anxiety doesn’t bother me.. sometimes it does.. sometimes i try to ignore it by reblogging “calming” things and stuff.. but sometimes that doesn’t work..

i’m going to actually try and read more self help books/articles, i have a ton bookmarked but i never actually read them cause i have commitment issues and I’m a big procrastination person and i just have the “do it later” attitude..  I think the reason why my anxiety and OCD don’t seem to get a whole lot better than they are, my issues.. none of that is going to get better if i don’t put in the effort and time to make those things better, i have read articles, done meditation, yoga, i’ve gone to forums, i’ve talked to other people, i’ve read parts of things that could help, bla bla bla.. The problem is i only did these things when I was REALLY anxious, and when the anxiety got better, I didn’t think i needed to keep up with it.

But the thing is, I do need to get in the habit of keeping with these things, not every day, not all the time, not to overwhelm myself (and this goes for not only therapy related things, but everything else too. projects, people, chatting, watching stuff, ocd things, time keeping, schedules, routines.. etcetc).

Yeah, thats whats been on my mind.

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