Before, during and after.

I’ve been getting back into the habit of not falling out of habits.. And by that I mean for the past month I’ve sucked at keeping up with things I used to do.. Not that change is bad, Just that this type of stuff bugs me out too much to not do it.. And most of the time it’s not just habitual.. It’s necessary.

I usually do similar things every day, it’s called a “Routine” and most people hate routine.. Most people go out of their way to avoid routine.. But i thrive on routine baby.. I thrive..  And without routine I go a little batty (I.E: I don’t like it)   I used to get dressed during the daytime, i used to go outside, i used to read, i used to do a lot of things I don’t usually do anymore.. I used to eat lunch, but that got screwed up last month.. and on the road to unscrewing parts of my life, I have learned a lot… I want to read books again, i want to game again (I’m actually doing that but I mean I want to play Dragon Age again.)  I want to get dressed in the day time instead of just walking around with my pajamas on .. I want to go through livejournal posts on A Day In My Life.. I want to watch youtube videos (There was never ACTUALLY a time when I consistantly watched youtube videos..)  It’s just.. I get into the habit of doing this or that  and then all at once, I forget I ever did this.. or that, and i stop doing it.

but the truth is.. I really miss it.

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